I am annoyed ! Really really really annoyed ! ... it seems like problems have a certain way of finding me and it is nearly impossible to find a way out. Yea there are times where i have small breaks, like one day rest, and then the following day... God save me ! It seems like i am running from one problem to another for help and then realizing oh ... yea i did not think this through it gets rather frustrating that everyday i am facing different problems. It may sound really exciting to run from one situation (at least life is busy) but seriously ... it really sucks. But i will control myself and not let myself rant on and on about my problems because it really wont help anyone.

My friend well he is suffering. Really really suffering, he lost a good chance with someone that he believed was the "one" for him. Tell you what... we will never know the one for us... not now that is. I have wondered to myself ... hmmm wait why do we go all out looking for our other half ? is it a human need ? or is it just ... human connection that we all need ? Well ? Is that all which runs our system before we finally settle down... it makes life seem quite pathetic, chasing after skirts. Yea i mean we do take fancy to a person from time to time but it is transient. Love is great ... but it has become so commercialized that love seems like something bought, put on, like a fraud... it makes it like a con man and a victim sort of relationship. I have at times felt love is not worth it... it causes problems and causes you to suffer, i guess it brings happiness as well... well love is bitter sweet. nuff said!