right on .... 18 years on and here I am, standing on my two feet, no more crawling on the floor like a baby, alive and well. I am reflecting on what life has done to me, the good, the bad, and really everything EVERYTHING so i guess this is gonna take at least an hour.
1st month- really great dinner at chinese restaurant and i ... being small and all of course could not eat so ... i ate there i think when i turned 16... beautiful and glorious food. never in my life have i eaten great and rich chinese food and it was the first time eating buddha jumps over the wall, yes it is a type of food. surprise! absolutely purrrrfect ! velvet.
1 year old - hand foot mouth incident, which coincidentally hit me on my birthday, and again when i turned 17... I guess it is a 16 year cycle. It killed me, and really was painful to get a child disease. But it also showed me who really did care for me, family, my beloved class and lao shi! yes you cant believe it but i would love to do a SHOUT OUT to lao shi!!!! she was the only teacher to check up on me and really showed LOADS of concern towards me. Eventhough i was her weakest student, most shy student, and really cannot make it in chinese, It was through her guidance and really really PATIENCE that got me through... i mean even though i got a U in the end i still think that she really deserves STANDING OVATION !!! THANK YOU LAO SHI !!!!
2 years old- I think i was living at Kathib at that time, really really East in Singapore. But i think i still can remember the time when we went to Delifrance, and my godsis fell off the chair. And broke her teeth. sigh. Anyway now my godsis is already going to an arts school and is doing some fashion stuff. I would not say that she is my confidant but quite a good friend that i meet every year, christmas, new year chinese and western, and just random meetings. For being a great friend, talking to me and all, just slacking in each other's company and FINDING POLAROID FOR ME !!!! muchos muchos THANK YOU !!! SHOUT OUT TO YOU !!!
3 years old- I remember not very clearly in that childish brain of mine that I had the ability to say hi-po-pot-a-mus a five syllable word, and it is all thanks to my FATHER ! he had read to me since, pre birth and the way that he tells stories is really hilarious, though sometimes he repeats his stories especially about army, he tells it in the SAME ECSTATIC way, one of the BEST storytellers i have ever known. I remember he would stay up and read poldy to me and kiss me goodnight, he would pray every morning for me before i go to school up till TODAY ! Sometimes he is really stern but i know that inside he really has my interest at heart and really deeply cares for me ALOT ALOT !!! so SHOUT OUT TO DAD !!!!
4 years old- kindergarden, I remember i still have that photo of the first day of school, my mum helping me put on my socks to go to apple tree. My mother is the BEST mother in the world, though sometimes i wish that she would go away and stop nagging about how my room is a total mess but she has been really patient and a true mother to me. I know that she sometimes cannot see it from my view but she would take time and sit down to talk to me, counsel and of course make fun of me. After viewing back, my mother has really been the one that has been pushing me on, All my dreams and all that i wanted to achieve, my mother has been probably my GREATEST SUPPORTER !!!! so thank you mum THANKS FOR ALLLLLL THESE 18 years.
5 years old- My shu shu ! i remember now... he was the one, that taught me really how to speak, how to act and how to tell stories. He may not know this but he is my MOST LOVED of all my relatives, I remember watching the Germany vs Poland game of the world cup and how insane we got when Germany scored at the last 5 mins otherwise that 100 dollars we bet would have gone down the drain. And the breakfast the next morning, really a VICTORY BREAKFAST ! i remember playing boat with him, we would go from one bed to another throw pillows and tell stories of the sea and really everything. so WITH GREAT AND DEEP GRATITUDE THANK YOU SHU SHU !!!
6 years old- My grandad, i remember living with them, overnight before chinese new year. I am what he calls me his bao bei which i really find endearing and very awwww. He is my great mentor, eventhough he cant really speak great english, he can speak nearly every other language, malay, tamil and ALL the chinese dialects in Singapore with a poised accent, probably where i picked up my love for language from. Also he taught me calligraphy and taught me how to be "cantonese" and good manners along with gentlemanness (what ever that is) so really really being a great mentor, though silent at times brooding and just stately, he is an excellent grand father so jumping !!! great thanks !!!! MM GOY YE YE !!! THANK YOU !!! MUACK !!! XOXO!!!
7 years old- My first day of primary school, I met no one in particular that really made an impact on my life so i shall thank ... mmm my grand ma ! my grandma is the MOST really the MOST funny person in our family i guess there was where i got my sense of humor from. I remember she would carry me around because then i was quite afraid of my grandfather because i think he scolded me quite loudly so... i clung to my grandma more. I have a piece of jade with my teeth marks on it because everytime she carried me i would bite on it, imagine that a jade pacifier ... so much for a silver spoon. Anyway she is the BEST COOK EVER !!!! at chinese new year she can cook up 10 to 11 dishes not including soup for a dinner which is THE BEST!!!!!!!! the table will be overflowing and just taste out of this world! so with all great thanks MM GOY MA MA !!!! THANK YOU THANK YOU !!!! MUACK MUACK !!! XOXOXOXO !!!
8 years old- hah !!! this is probably the most funny ! i would love to thank my teacher, Mr Chan, he was an old man but told stories like a DREAM, the way he told stories interested me loads into reading and writing my own. Because his stories were often spontaneous and he made us continue the stories for him in our composition. His telling of stories really OPENED THAT IMAGINATION OF MINE !!!! Also he was a really kind man, treating us to chinese new year candies, the expense that he went to teach us was just god sent ! so THANK YOU THANK YOU !!! Mr. CHAN !!!
9 years old - My bro is about 2 years now, he is the clown of the house. Though quite a prick at times, i find that he is trying to emulate me but failing rather badly at it. Sigh i guess somethings just cannot be. But he has been a really good brother thinking of me always and being patient with the snide comments i say to him. so really really thank you !!! THANK YOU for being my BRUDDER !
10 years old - this was probably the most amazing friend that i have ever known! my da jie. she was what i would call, the bestest sister i EVER had ! I had just got to know her, living near me and all. But i refused to tell anyone about her, she was my secret. But nearly everyday I would meet up with her and play, talk and she was probably the BESTEST friend i ever had. All the way up to my 15 th birthday, that was the impact that she had. a real shaper in my life. 5 years of GREAT FRIENDSHIP !!! just the best to me. she would be willing to stay all night just listening to me. I can remember just sitting outside of macdonalds and just sitting there till next morning watching the sun rise. I can remember vividly the time she taught me how to sing, a really great singer she was. perfect pitch so i tried to learn a bit from her. she said i was "her one and only student that had such an unbelievably deep voice" sigh, it was really really nostalgic times. my da jie, i remember standing there beside her coffin, and the tears just would not stop, the amount of impact that she had on me had been ended in a single moment. I remember endless crying for the whole week and even when i think of her sometimes, the tears just well up. But i have moved on, Her 18th birthday present to me, another jie nearly exactly like her. really really LOVE THE PRESENT YOU GAVE TO ME... SHE IS AN ANGEL !!!! I pray you are doing well up there watching over me. so THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOUTHANK YOUTHANK YOUTHANK YOUTHANK YOUTHANK YOUTHANK YOUTHANK YOUTHANK YOUTHANK YOUTHANK YOUTHANK YOUTHANK YOUTHANK YOUTHANK YOUTHANK YOUTHANK YOUTHANK YOUTHANK YOUTHANK YOU there is no way that i can thank you less ... THANK YOU Da jie !
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