13 mai 2009

Crushed and reborn

and so i sit here contemplating.... what is it all worth. 
Nothing. Nothing. Nothing.


Ok ...! enough emoing and onto greater and more pleasant things. 

Well today I had cheesecake. woah that made me happy right away ! ya I had Cheese cake and it was ..gooooooooood along with madelaines and bee hoon and crosoiant hmmm oh oh !!! and tang yuan or as my dear friend put it ... peanut dumplings hahahaha!! 

but today was a ... shack day... but lets not diverge ... happy happy !!! 

oh oh !!! i got a rugby ball today. yes it seems very childish but ball ball !!! it is a childhood thing. It is a gilbert X400 size 5 beautiful exactcally what a rugby ball should be.

oh oh  I had a good consultation today... it was good alright. I managed to clear up and clammer my tutor for economics. She is a funny teacher ... there is no better way i can put it. It is just, funny. yes pardon my lack of ability to express here. sigh ... 

oh oh !!! as i am writing ... i am also kinda de-stressing. probably would need to cry a bit to sleep. It happens... when i am pent up with madness and it all comes out... yes I will just cry myself to sleep an wake up feeling all jovial and light headed. It is a defense mechanism... I think i am too repressed. Too stuck ... in my annoyance, unwilling to say stuff or mostly afraid to say stuff that will hurt other people so i swallow it down. and after 10 days or so ... it saturates into tear drops. 

go away !!! no leave me alone ... no just go go go !! away from me ... just leave. 
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