like a serpent i will strike !

hello reader... (yes it does sound creepy) anyway... here goes. I cannot take it anymore ! nothing matters anymore. my struggle is paining my soul. Going to school is something which i have great joy but also i enter that prison with a heavy heart. Argh, pierce, ahhh SINGE MY HEAD !!! and now my God is missing... a hole in what remains of that black heart...oh my goodness this sounds so so emo... really cant take anymore of this crap! 

here goes ... another poem... more obvious to what is troubling me. and it may reveal too much but please please if you figure this out tell no one... please... i beg you 

Take me away ! 

do not hold me back! 

let me loose 

myself !

Pictures of pink and white flash through my mind 

the blossoming of the flowers in spring

rain is pleasant to my eye, and

like an angel she floats, across waterways 

but i cannot do anything. Cannot say anything for 

I am just a lone almond tree 

budding poetry through the flowery language 

Patience is not my cup of tea. 

not easy like cake. It is like poison, cyanide. No,  

Heroin, oh yes, she is like a drug. intoxicating, drowning me in her presence. 

I can see her from far far away 

petit figure with dancing eyes, lies play within those mirrors. 

i loose hope and don't know if i can, should approach. 

Missing, my mind, my all is lost to her, just 

just a starry dream. 

-finis-

i am really lost and helpless... all it lost. my Lolita. MY SIN MY SOUL, a curse !!!!